But now their dysfunction is catching up with them, pulling at their seams and fraying the world they’ve built; a world where neither has ever let the other go completely. i will never fully recover from this book. the way that i had absolutely no idea wtf i was getting into when i started this but loved every single moment of this book. this might be my new favorite book at the moment because i literally cannot get it put it out of my head!! They were all such awful people but you can’t help but feel so sorry for them and root for them it makes no sense but it makes sense okay?!

And you want to know the god honest truth? I wasn’t thinking of Parks. All I was thinking about was that was what I wanted. It was what I wanted. I was choosing it. That was what I wanted to be doing and I was doing it, and I had a girl in my hands that I wanted there, and we were touching and kissing and that was what I wanted. Some of my favorite moments between them are the ones they have with each other but also: The lost item, the walk and that phone call. the willow tree, the tattoos he has (please look up the fan art for it) 🥺, the nostalgic yet profound conversations they had when they were good, the hotel scene, the part where bj didn’t want to leave and of course towards the end. Idk if I’m missing one but just know when they were good I was good and cherished the happy and even emotional moments. The most beautiful boy in every room, the great love of my life—how many loves do you get in a lifetime? I remember wondering that. How many people will look at me like he does, not just like I’m the sun but like I’m the whole god damn universe.” i read spoilers for what jules did LOLLL blame tiktok 4 that, and honestly, even if its the same font different shit, id probably still prefer him over blowjob. id prefer tom over all of them except all of you are haters, and by now i know its probably for good reason 😔she thinks we're in the stars but i just think she's the current of everything and i'm always just drifting...floating home to her,' You have sex with other people and tell her because when you do, it makes her sad and her being sad about that validates your feelings for her. She still cares. She wouldn’t be sad otherwise. She’s sad that I’m sleeping with other people, it must be because she still has feelings for me. You do it to feel close to her.”

i just need to know where tf the hemmes dipped, where daisy vanished off to, why kekoa texted that, wtf happened to bridge, what julian did cuz i already know from everyones comments hes the cause, the car crash, and honestly i forgot who lived on kensington st so its an out of sight out of mind sitch as of now xx Literally every single character in this book is messed up. Except Bridget I love her she calls them out on their shit.Tom: best character. him and Magnolia gave to "in an other life" chant another meaning and i’ll always cherish their relationship and the way he treated her. He’s a time bomb for me, do you see now? That he’ll hurt me. He’ll always hurt me. I’ll never be safe with him, even if I’m always safe next to him.”

They also continue to show how they’re human by making mistakes, struggling with trust and forgiveness, being regretful and being in pain— ultimately their love for one another feels as strong as it is because of this. As they both know why they continue to hurt each other, I would hope they don’t stop trying to work on themselves to end the cycle. I can’t say I didn’t enjoy bj standing up for himself and calling mags out on her being the problem as she also was and although the delivery was probably harsh she needed to hear it and know that she’s not the only one that was betrayed. Thankfully she recognizes that Reading this universe is like riding a bike and then you take a break from it for a month. But even during that break you don’t forget the way it made you feel; Like it was just so extra and it kept my attention all the damn time to the point where I hated the fact that I had to part with the book to sleep. 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗰𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘀 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗸𝗲𝗽𝘁 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗻 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗽 𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱. I’m so mad at BJ right now I feel like he personally hurt me lmao but I also just want him to be okay because he is so clearly not okay and it’s so heartbreaking to read. It’s made me FEEL emotions I never knew I had until now. Their pain was my pain. Their love was my love. Their happiness was my happiest moment. They broke, I cried. Yeah, it’s intense but it hurts so good.

The whole friend group (found family) mostly (save for a few) were also a mess but I liked the dynamics. Small mention of gus but the little we got of him in this was hilarious as hell to me Everything wonderful, everything magical, everything painful, everything beautiful and spectacular and wretched and defining that has happened to me happened with him. And I hate him for that.