When I was a probie [probation) with the Fire Department, there was another guy assigned to our firehouse, going through the ranks with me. I doubt he would identify as gay because he was married with a little kid at the time. I’m pretty sure we were both just super curious. Only happened once. I still know the dude.”

After laying down I heard someone enter and as I was on my tummy, I couldn’t see who. Then a strong and rough pair of hands touched my calves and massaged them a bit. “Is there a lot of stiffness here,” he asked. “Ohhh, yes that feels good,” I tell him. Then he walked forward. “I am Ryan, your masseuse and I will need you to guide me on the places where you need help.” I agreed and he starts rubbing my hard muscles and stiff joints.I am a somewhat of an attractive guy who is in my mid-twenties and manages to keep in shape by playing sports and hitting the gym. I also consider myself to be fairly open-minded and willing to try almost anything once; having said that though, my first experience with another man was totally unplanned and unexpected, although it did end up being thoroughly enjoyed. I shyly thanked Tom, and although he didn't say then (or at any time later) that he'd enjoyed it too he did say that it had been a while for him.

I was 21-years old and spent most of the summer working construction to make extra money for college. On the job, I got to know one of the guys [Mike] who was a little older than me. Like 25? Also, please, don\’t ask for names of my couples or gay friends. I am not a pimp for anybody. My relationship with them is extremely sacrosanct for me and I will not oblige any such request. We can chat and exchange mails. But that\’s where it ends till we do not build a trust among each other. About a month ago, I went for a marriage of my of my relatives. It was a destination wedding at a large resort. The resort also had a nice spa. I’m not going to go so far as to say we were boyfriends because we weren’t. But when we weren’t at work, we did make out a few times and more. I was bumped when he got transferred a year after making it through probation.”While we were staying at a state campground, one of the park rangers came by our camping area to warn us of pending severe weather. I think the guy was around 30 years old? My masseur slowly worked his hands higher and higher, my legs spread even wider on their own. Now he had complete access to me! He took advantage of it also massaging up to my cheeks and 'accidently' bushing my balls as he massaged my inner thigh area. He reached for my foot and started in massaging it. Still feeling very relaxed all I could do was just allow things to happen to me. His touch was soothing as he started to work his way up my foot and ankle, higher up on to my calf and knee then finally to my thigh; the suspense was killing me as I knew what I wanted! I just wanted him to get there, asap! After finishing with my legs, Sanju moved to massage my chest and stomach. He was a bit erotic with my chest. Sometimes caressing, even pinching my nipples. I was already quite hard and now his foreplay was only making matters worse. As we entered the room, I removed my bathrobe and got naked and sat on the marble bench. As I turned I saw the other guy already naked and standing near the steam.

Chris then proceeded to oil me up, and started the massage - which was amazing. He had the most wonderful touch, and in the course of the whole massage, got every muscle in my body and relaxed it. But every move he made, he would start at my ass - massage the hole and my balls, and then move to another part of the body. Once I finally slipped out we just rested for a couple of moments till our breathing returned to normal. What a massage that man gave me! What a way to spend an hour. Why couldn't I do this every day? However you describe your sexuality, most guys are going to enjoy being oiled up and worked over by a strong pair of hands. How sexual does an erotic gay massage get? I never really did something with another guy but I did use to watch two dudes I served with [in the military] mess around in the woods. I researched it a little starting with the forum and found only the one post. It was about a 50-year-old guy who was offering male massages in the North West. I looked through it and it didn't appeal, but I couldn't get my mind off the subject.

I drove to his studio and had the butterflies in my stomach that I lived for. Sexual energy. I loved not knowing what to expect...it's what drove me. The masseur, Sanju, was about 28-30 years old with a slightly dark wheatish skin and a lanky build. He had a clean shaven face with an attractive smile. So I suppose it shouldn't have come as much of a surprise that right after I had widened my legs, he brushed my balls again even more deliberately and even lingered awhile on them. It was then that I knew this guy was planning more than just a massage. Once that revelation hit me, I became fully aroused almost instantly and no amount of bed sheets could conceal that fact.

We both showered while having small talk. After coming out, we both again stood completely naked while drying our bodies and applying the moisturizers. It was an amazing and unexpected massage - one that realized my fantasy and opened me up to realizing more...This is probably the experience I remember least about, not because I didn't enjoy it but because it was organized fairly last minute, on the same day I believe. As usual I had been looking through Craigslist and looking for the more interesting and easy going meet ups. I stumbled across a guy, again a similar age, offering full body massages for guys, again he was a guy who didn't want anything in return, he was experienced from a past career on cruise ships with massage and was offering a full body massage, with a few extras. Given my journey up to now, how could I resist! The whole thing ended when I joined the Army and got deployed. He has long since moved somewhere else with his family. Fun times. But that was years ago. I’ve never done anything like that since.” I had never been interested in Men at all outside of watching porn and loving BBC porn. But I think that was more around contrast than desire.