I know my life experience is very different from yours and I can’t possibly begin to understand your pain, but still, I agree with your thoughts on this article, and I’m grateful for finding your comment, with much more genuine and sincere thoughts.

What beautiful, poignant sentiments. Your fear of missing out on something tomorrow (if you died) reminds me of a saying I read: “We are unaware of what sweet miracles may come.” And also, though this has become cliché: “Don’t quit five minutes before your miracle.” Thanks Stacey for taking the time to reply, I’ve been like this for years and I’ve had counselling in the past, I know all the things I need to do to get myself in a better place but I just get so overwhelmed with tiredness, anxiety,depression,guilt, self loathing that I don’t do any of the things I need to do to get myself out of this place. Thanks again 🙏🏻Gay’– really? 🙂 And you think it’s more macho to kill yourself? Come on, if you wanna get macho, you know the thing to do is tough it out.

It is getting difficult day by day. I feel like a failure and I don’t even have enough in me now that I want to try anymore. I get irritated when people are around me and feel helpless when they are not. I hope everyone out there gets out of all the trouble they are facing mentally. And try harder. Thank you, you gave me an extra breath. You’re not alone in how you feel although you probably feel alone. I feel alone and have no motivation so it’s down to me that I’m alone, I cancel plans with the few individuals I call friends then I sit at home feeling like I have no friends and watch everyone on fb living their life’s, while I slip in and out of sleep and wish I could be like them. Don’t get me wrong, people should be hopeful and do everything to thrive and live a happy life. But some of us are tired, exhausted and hopeless. My parents are gone. My brother and two of my sisters are gone. I have a brother left and a sister who has declared to the world how much she despises me.testosterone production: my doctor saw my performance at the gym decline to just sitting; trying to motivate myself to move.. he told me to come into his office before hours the next day.. I did.. my testosterone was down from 900 to 140.. and my thyroid? it also was underperforming.. both were easily remedied (but the real reason testosterone collapsed? see next part) I’ve decided that, for right or wrong, that I’ve had enough of this life. The steep descent into insanity started in mid 2018 when I saw footage of the way animals (pigs) were treated while being prepared for slaughter. Some of the stuff I saw was beyond horrendous I hurt for you while reading your comment. Thank you for sharing so much here. It must have taken a lot of time and tears to write out your story like that.